We got great connection between us, until yesterday that i told her that she's too good for me and too beutiful for me.
You seem the opposite of me. I think I must be well (ok then) I'm a (Bow wow) woof.
I wanted girls so much that I enrolled in a cooking class. I got three girls out of that one. Just barely in the 7th grade.
If you have the connection your speaking of then you don't fear her.
Instead I think you fear failure. Rejection is one of the worse things about failure and when you face your fears about it. Then thats when a higher understanding comes.
You have to feel comfortable in any situation. Calm cool and collected if not they smell it and they don't want someone who will just quit and walk or worse marry them and not provide ( They are looking for security) that's what you must represent.
Go do a fire walk.
Go Repelling.
Jump from a plane and as you do it say to yourself this is facing my fears all of them equally.
Take a class in something like ballroom dancing and learn to get close to people they don't break and neither will you.
I remember my first class in kung fu it was difficult to have close contact these people will break you equally you them. You learn to be comfortable inside their bubble and you in theirs.
After three weeks of training I didn't have a bubble. In my martial arts classes I had before that training did not allow that really close in contact stuff.
I just wish I would have learn to dance better.
Looking back I would have.
And yes their are
girls at the ballroom lots of them. My nephew met a wonderful girl doing ballroom they make a great couple. The more you do the more you learn.
Build your confidence. Once you have tasted the possibility of failure and death none of your questions will mean anything anymore. You will have passed the point of no return.
[Today she told me she still wants us to keep our contact and i know that she still hopes that one day i'll get some courage and meet with her,
No, matter what happens in this situation learn grow and adapt.
whoooa !!
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