One or two of you I have kept in touch with you outside of the forums, a couple dont come here much now but we kept in touch.
I started here when my dad got sick and had a huge stroke a few years back, I wanted to finish his project and so I ended up here. I know some think me and my dad are the same despite me posting a pic of us together. I did write much of my dads posts but with him there with me, what many didnt know was my dad never recovered properly from his stroke.
Not much point going into details and most of you never met us in person (one or two did), so you wont know how great he was and how proud and frustrated he became after his stroke. He fought really hard to walk again and even for a while work, I mostly still think of him as the bloke I used to see carry sheep over his shoulders lol.
Anyway he had a number of mini strokes and refused to slow down, he ended up having real problems with reading. He could see the words ok but somehow it got scrambled. Anyway I have known for a while he was going downhill, I wont bother listing them but oddly enough the damage to his arm with the tractor kicked off a train of events. He had to cut down on the rat poison stuff and that didnt help, my dad lost most of his sight around 5 weeks ago. Partly it was one reason I came back, I new he was deteriorating and this place was kind of where we started doing electronics together that grew into a hobby we both shared. We used to fish and had a small boat but to be honest he didnt actually fish anymore he pottered on the boat.
A few weeks back he started to forget our names and act a bit odd, I have some pics I got mum to take but probably wont post them for a few days.
So we were aware he wasnt right and he was seen by the doctor this morning, he insisted he was staying at home and didnt want messing with. Then a few hours ago he fell, nothing serious as such he was standing in the kitchen then he wasnt. It was nothing spectacular he just wasnt standing anymore, he looked at my mum and my mum called an ambulance. My dad is now in hospital not because of the fall as such but because he isnt well, I dont know the details because I havnt asked, one look at my mum tells me I dont need to ask much.
My mum and sister are at the hospital and my neighbor is here with me, mum has called and dad is no longer breathing on his own. She wanted to know if I would like to be picked up in the morning and go and see my dad, please dont think I am being mean but I am not going. I know when my mum and sister come home at some point soon they will be alone, I also know last weekend was great fun with my dad and for a few hours it was like years ago.
I feel you are like strangers but then again I dont do friends and yet most of you have been friends, this is not a post for you but mostly a post to myself.
I want to scream and cry but I cant somehow find a way to do it, I want to go into my lab and make a machine to turn the clock back 12 hours.
I almost posted asking for help to build a machine that would help my dad, but even if we could together build a machine I know my dad was deeply unhappy the last few years, not with us but with frustration.
I know I wont see him again but even writing it dosnt seem to make it real, and now I have changed my mind. I will go tomorrow just so I can ask one last time if I can borrow the welder.
Anyway I wanted you to know and I will probably keep posting, but I might go for a little while, I wont be posting updates on this and I wont be making announcements. If you are one the people who liked my dad then go solder something, he was a do er and liked people that did things.
If you have kids next time you hug them mean it, as kids we know when you mean it the same way you know when we mean it. I hugged him alot and I meant it.
I dont think I will sleep much tonight so I might post crap instead, feel free to delete whatever you want. I need to get busy and make something or do something or plan something, I hope you understand but if not to be honest I dont care.
Thanks
Logan Grendon Bell
Little Ghost
LG11
I started here when my dad got sick and had a huge stroke a few years back, I wanted to finish his project and so I ended up here. I know some think me and my dad are the same despite me posting a pic of us together. I did write much of my dads posts but with him there with me, what many didnt know was my dad never recovered properly from his stroke.
Not much point going into details and most of you never met us in person (one or two did), so you wont know how great he was and how proud and frustrated he became after his stroke. He fought really hard to walk again and even for a while work, I mostly still think of him as the bloke I used to see carry sheep over his shoulders lol.
Anyway he had a number of mini strokes and refused to slow down, he ended up having real problems with reading. He could see the words ok but somehow it got scrambled. Anyway I have known for a while he was going downhill, I wont bother listing them but oddly enough the damage to his arm with the tractor kicked off a train of events. He had to cut down on the rat poison stuff and that didnt help, my dad lost most of his sight around 5 weeks ago. Partly it was one reason I came back, I new he was deteriorating and this place was kind of where we started doing electronics together that grew into a hobby we both shared. We used to fish and had a small boat but to be honest he didnt actually fish anymore he pottered on the boat.
A few weeks back he started to forget our names and act a bit odd, I have some pics I got mum to take but probably wont post them for a few days.
So we were aware he wasnt right and he was seen by the doctor this morning, he insisted he was staying at home and didnt want messing with. Then a few hours ago he fell, nothing serious as such he was standing in the kitchen then he wasnt. It was nothing spectacular he just wasnt standing anymore, he looked at my mum and my mum called an ambulance. My dad is now in hospital not because of the fall as such but because he isnt well, I dont know the details because I havnt asked, one look at my mum tells me I dont need to ask much.
My mum and sister are at the hospital and my neighbor is here with me, mum has called and dad is no longer breathing on his own. She wanted to know if I would like to be picked up in the morning and go and see my dad, please dont think I am being mean but I am not going. I know when my mum and sister come home at some point soon they will be alone, I also know last weekend was great fun with my dad and for a few hours it was like years ago.
I feel you are like strangers but then again I dont do friends and yet most of you have been friends, this is not a post for you but mostly a post to myself.
I want to scream and cry but I cant somehow find a way to do it, I want to go into my lab and make a machine to turn the clock back 12 hours.
I almost posted asking for help to build a machine that would help my dad, but even if we could together build a machine I know my dad was deeply unhappy the last few years, not with us but with frustration.
I know I wont see him again but even writing it dosnt seem to make it real, and now I have changed my mind. I will go tomorrow just so I can ask one last time if I can borrow the welder.
Anyway I wanted you to know and I will probably keep posting, but I might go for a little while, I wont be posting updates on this and I wont be making announcements. If you are one the people who liked my dad then go solder something, he was a do er and liked people that did things.
If you have kids next time you hug them mean it, as kids we know when you mean it the same way you know when we mean it. I hugged him alot and I meant it.
I dont think I will sleep much tonight so I might post crap instead, feel free to delete whatever you want. I need to get busy and make something or do something or plan something, I hope you understand but if not to be honest I dont care.
Thanks
Logan Grendon Bell
Little Ghost
LG11