I am the eternal optimist. Always try and find good in stuff. If you scratch enough...you will find it. Applicable to people too...
Hi Guys
How do I say this??. Here I am. As dedicated as ever to this wonderful place we lovingly call ETO. The place that with all the patience and understanding that has seen me through some of my darkest hours...some see me as a Joker....and indeed I can be....yet, the Joker is probably the one hurting the most..
Anyway...my much admired and respected opponent...recent friend...and bench partner....is probably going to die. That sucks big time. Just when I thought all was coming together...happy days. So, I sit here scratching my head. Literally.
I mean, he does not drink much. He looks after himself. He avoided the tvtechnician habit of being a total pisscat.
Here is the thing that hit me today: I have done almost everything in my power to self destruct...I have done it all and then some..
And there he comes along...knows what all the Guys before did....learns from that...and then...gets Cancer anyway...
What a bummer. I don't easily get emotional. But today was an eye opener. And kinda scary.
My backup right hand man ain't coming back. And there is nobody that can replace him. Everything is once again on my plate.
****** finger and all.
So, why did I post this thread...simple.
I need to sleep soundly on Sunday night. I need to get my ass in gear for Monday....so no posting here on a Sunday evening late anymore. I need to force myself to do this. I have traveled this road before...
I need to remind myself that I need to turn over a new leaf.
Love you Guys,
tvtech
Hi Guys
How do I say this??. Here I am. As dedicated as ever to this wonderful place we lovingly call ETO. The place that with all the patience and understanding that has seen me through some of my darkest hours...some see me as a Joker....and indeed I can be....yet, the Joker is probably the one hurting the most..
Anyway...my much admired and respected opponent...recent friend...and bench partner....is probably going to die. That sucks big time. Just when I thought all was coming together...happy days. So, I sit here scratching my head. Literally.
I mean, he does not drink much. He looks after himself. He avoided the tvtechnician habit of being a total pisscat.
Here is the thing that hit me today: I have done almost everything in my power to self destruct...I have done it all and then some..
And there he comes along...knows what all the Guys before did....learns from that...and then...gets Cancer anyway...
What a bummer. I don't easily get emotional. But today was an eye opener. And kinda scary.
My backup right hand man ain't coming back. And there is nobody that can replace him. Everything is once again on my plate.
****** finger and all.
So, why did I post this thread...simple.
I need to sleep soundly on Sunday night. I need to get my ass in gear for Monday....so no posting here on a Sunday evening late anymore. I need to force myself to do this. I have traveled this road before...
I need to remind myself that I need to turn over a new leaf.
Love you Guys,
tvtech
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